Successful But Not!

I used to say I feel successful…. but not! In so many ways I knew I was successful and others would see me to be successful but no matter what I did, I did not feel successful. Having a house, a nice car, a hectic social life, expensive gym membership, dinners out and many more things, made it look like I was successful but the truth was I was far from successful; and now I know, I didn’t have inner peace and didn’t actually recognise I had so much. I can now say, I genuinely feel I have success because I see everything for what it is and appreciate everything I have. I am so grateful for it all and that right there is the true feeling of success.

Sounds so simple when you’ve mastered the whole positivity breeds positivity and the whole concept of manifesting but I know more than anyone the process to get there is the biggest challenge. I still have down days and days where I can feel stuck towards achieving my goals; but it has never been the same failure feeling as before because appreciation runs through my blood and gratitude is what I know, so it is hard for me to get back to THAT place but I can also have down days where I may just watch TV a bit more or stay in my PJ’s. I have recognised that is okay and we all need down days otherwise we just burn out. Those down days are now known to me as “Re-charging days”.

All I ever wanted was the high-flying career that everyone around me had, I wanted to earn money, enjoy my job and progress through a company. I wanted financial independence but for some reason it just never happened and when opportunities arose it just didn’t fill me with any happiness. It affected me so much, I just never understood why I can’t reach “success”? Why can’t I earn the same as my friends? Why don’t I enjoy the traditional route we have been shown to take? I really wanted to get a job and work up the ladder.

Over the past year I have taken up working in Special Needs Schools, I had never grown up thinking this is what I will do, it wasn’t a path I saw myself going down and I may not be in this field forever but I will always give my time and efforts to special needs children forever now. However, I am so grateful for the opportunity I have had to work in this environment, because I am surrounded by real life superheroes. Those children, those teachers and of course those parents, who deal with their situation and don’t even complain. How could I ever complain? I have a roof over my head, I have food in my fridge, I have the opportunity to work, I am not tied down to stay at home and look after children that need my constant attention and support, I have healthy children, I can sleep at night because I don’t need to stay awake all night with my special needs child to ensure that they don’t choke or have a fit. Gratefulness ran through me like it was blood keeping my heart pumping. I honestly think every human being should do 3 days in a special needs school as you will instantly see, those children did not ask to be born like that, those families did not want their whole life to change but once those children were born, they have to get up every day and take on those challenges daily.

They say when you are feeling low, help others. I always used to think that helping others who are less fortunate allows you to receive blessings and therefore that’s the only reason people would do it; but the truth of the matter is, it grows your heart, compassion and empathy, it takes over your mind and soul and being grateful is what you breathe in and out every second.

No amount of money or status will ever make me feel successful now if I can’t even say thank you for the things I have. I will never see the success I already have. Always remember there is someone out there, who would want what you have. You ARE successful.